Bipolar Black Sheep

  • Caffeine is a Drug

    Caffeine is the most widely used drug in the world and, for me, the most addictive substance I have ever consumed. Most of us drink some form of caffeine daily without questioning it. As our world becomes more anxious, I must examine my daily choices and how they affect my mood and well-being. I have…

  • Magical Microdosing

    (Trigger Warning – Psychedelic Use, Please do research and consult with professionals before you experiment with mushrooms/psilocybin. SAFETY FIRST) “One trip can change your whole life” For years, I was terrified of mushrooms. I loved getting fucked up, but the idea of tripping seemed like a nightmare to me. I had heard countless horror stories…

  • Living in a Tent

    (Trigger Warning – Disordered Eating and Substance Abuse) “It only takes a couple of minutes to lose everything” It’s September 2014, and I’m living with my wealthy boyfriend. We’ve been caught in a toxic three-year relationship, and things are about to get real. We had been doing long-distance for the past few years; he lived…

  • Fat to Fit

    (Trigger Warning – Disordered Eating) “It’s a lifestyle, not a diet” I have struggled with my weight and body issues my whole life. I was the queen of disordered eating, yo-yo dieting, and body dysmorphia. Around the age of 13, I developed my first eating disorder. I was skinny but always felt very fat. I…

  • The Anxiety Experiment

    (Trigger Warning – Substance Abuse and Suicidal Ideation) “My anxiety has anxiety” Originally Published January 29th 2025  Anxiety has been a significant part of my life since childhood; you could say it’s one of my closest companions. I often find myself trapped in a cycle of worrying and envisioning worst-case scenarios. I can lie in…

  • Retired Party Girl

    (Trigger Warning – Substance Abuse and Chaos) “It is easier to stay sober than to get sober” Originally Published January 8th 2025 I feel the chilly breeze tickling my warm skin as tiny raindrops fall on my head while I walk up a steep hill. Tears stream down my face as I kick acorns and…

  • Amphetamine Psychosis

    (Trigger Warning – Sexual Abuse, Traumatic Events, Self Harm, Substance Abuse, Rape) Originally Published March 9, 2023 “The hardest part of writing it, is reliving it.” I am losing my mind, but I like it. It’s August 2022; I just turned 33 and have never been this creative. I can barely sleep at night because…

  • Dirty Secrets

    (Trigger Warning – Sex, Lies, and Substance Abuse) Originally Published June 14, 2023 “You’re Only As Sick As Your Secrets” It’s April 2017, and I am visiting my family in Iron Mountain, Michigan. This is a special trip for me because I am introducing my serious boyfriend to all of my cousins and siblings. As…

  • Fuck! I’m Sober

    (Trigger Warning – Substance Abuse, Depression, and Sexual Fuckery) Originally Published April 5, 2023 “My least favorite place to be is in active addiction” It’s May 2003, and I’m 14 years old. My childhood best friend and I have decided that it’s our turn to get drunk for the very first time. We sneak into…

  • Cumming Out

    (Trigger Warning – Suicide, Sex & Substance Abuse) Originally Published February 22, 2023 “You will never find anything real being fake.” I haven’t had a stable job in years – It’s 2018, and I merely exist to use other people’s shit. I use their houses, their couches, their food, their cars, their clothes, their bathrooms,…