Bipolar Black Sheep

  • Got Pain?

    In 2025 I started struggling with knee pain for the first time in my life. I knew it was inflammation because I had it in both knees, especially when taking the stairs. I made a lot of lifestyle changes and I am proud to report that I am now completely pain free. After months of…

  • The Real Cause of Mental illness

    If you or someone you care about is struggling with mental health challenges, I highly recommend listening to this podcast. https://youtu.be/-xg5-HF4ehU?si=qVK9Z8hqimolCzWe Contrary to popular belief, most mental health issues are rooted in metabolic dysfunction, not the illusive “chemical imbalance.” This is evident as Americans are taking more medication than ever before, yet we remain in…

  • Escaping My Cage

    (A disturbingly delightful poem) I have built my own prison during my lifetime.I think we all have.Other people’s opinions and societal expectations live under my skin. Every morning, cortisol shoots through my body and wakes me up.It is time to start my daily ritual of worrying about things.I love to worry.Overthink. Overanalyze. Catastrophize. And scare…

  • How to UnFuck Your Life in 2026

    “Every Excuse You Make is Another Chain to Break” I have fucked up my life a lot. For over a decade my bad habits were my best friends. I had a dangerous all-or-nothing mindset, going from zero to 100 without finding any middle ground – I was constantly overwhelmed, burnt out, and full of guilt.…

  • Recovering Attention Whore

    “I need attention like others need oxygen” I’ve never been to rehab, but if I did, it would be for attention-seeking behavior. They say writers often do things on purpose so they can write about their experiences; perhaps this is true. I definitely have a treasure trove of stories that would take a lifetime to…

  • Fake As Fuck

    “What happens when you change your life so much that you don’t know who you are anymore?” I have always been very open about my life. During my teenage years and early 20s, I shared many exciting experiences, such as partying with friends, participating in athletic activities, pursuing big dreams, attending university, and having wild…

  • Why I Went All Natural

    “My late father’s favorite F-word was free.” Have you ever tallied up how much you spend on cosmetics, self-care services, mindless shopping, and trendy social media products? Think about the costs of makeup, skincare creams, nail care, shaving supplies, hair coloring and cutting, new fast-fashion outfits, amazon packages, party supplies, premium apps, fast food, cosmetic…

  • Keep Going! You Matter <3

    May is Mental Health Awareness Month and WE ARE IN A CRISIS. Suicide is the leading cause of death for individuals under 30, and it is the top cause of death for men under 50. People are literally dying because they feel hopeless and alone. This breaks my heart and makes me cry. If you…

  • How 2 Become a Runner

    (Trigger Warning – Disordered Eating and Pooping in Public) As a child, I dreaded running. Each year, I could barely finish the mile in gym class. Even though I played three team sports—volleyball, basketball, and soccer—I only ran when necessary. However, at 20, when my mental health spiraled for the first time and I began…

  • My 1st Healthy Relationship

    It’s June 2022, and I am in Portland, Oregon. I just completed a month-long volunteer program on an organic livestock farm and feel sad to leave. Being on the farm was one of the best experiences of my life, and I plan to remain friends with the farmers forever. That said, I have no idea…