Bipolar Black Sheep

  • Why I Went All Natural

    “My late father’s favorite F-word was free.” Have you ever tallied up how much you spend on cosmetics, self-care services, mindless shopping, and trendy social media products? Think about the costs of makeup, skincare creams, nail care, shaving supplies, hair coloring and cutting, new fast-fashion outfits, amazon packages, party supplies, premium apps, fast food, cosmetic…

  • Keep Going! You Matter <3

    May is Mental Health Awareness Month and WE ARE IN A CRISIS. Suicide is the leading cause of death for individuals under 30, and it is the top cause of death for men under 50. People are literally dying because they feel hopeless and alone. This breaks my heart and makes me cry. If you…

  • My 1st Healthy Relationship

    It’s June 2022, and I am in Portland, Oregon. I just completed a month-long volunteer program on an organic livestock farm and feel sad to leave. Being on the farm was one of the best experiences of my life, and I plan to remain friends with the farmers forever. That said, I have no idea…

  • Caffeine is a Drug

    Caffeine is the most widely used drug in the world and, for me, the most addictive substance I have ever consumed. Most of us drink some form of caffeine daily without questioning it. As our world becomes more anxious, I must examine my daily choices and how they affect my mood and well-being. I have…

  • Magical Microdosing

    (Trigger Warning – Psychedelic Use, Please do research and consult with professionals before you experiment with mushrooms/psilocybin. SAFETY FIRST) “One trip can change your whole life” For years, I was terrified of mushrooms. I loved getting fucked up, but the idea of tripping seemed like a nightmare to me. I had heard countless horror stories…

  • The Anxiety Experiment

    (Trigger Warning – Substance Abuse and Suicidal Ideation) “My anxiety has anxiety” Originally Published January 29th 2025  Anxiety has been a significant part of my life since childhood; you could say it’s one of my closest companions. I often find myself trapped in a cycle of worrying and envisioning worst-case scenarios. I can lie in…

  • Retired Party Girl

    (Trigger Warning – Substance Abuse and Chaos) “It is easier to stay sober than to get sober” Originally Published January 8th 2025 I feel the chilly breeze tickling my warm skin as tiny raindrops fall on my head while I walk up a steep hill. Tears stream down my face as I kick acorns and…

  • Fuck! I’m Sober

    (Trigger Warning – Substance Abuse, Depression, and Sexual Fuckery) Originally Published April 5, 2023 “My least favorite place to be is in active addiction” It’s May 2003, and I’m 14 years old. My childhood best friend and I have decided that it’s our turn to get drunk for the very first time. We sneak into…

  • Cumming Out

    (Trigger Warning – Suicide, Sex & Substance Abuse) Originally Published February 22, 2023 “You will never find anything real being fake.” I haven’t had a stable job in years – It’s 2018, and I merely exist to use other people’s shit. I use their houses, their couches, their food, their cars, their clothes, their bathrooms,…

  • Starving Myself

    (Trigger Warning – Disordered Eating, Sexual Content, and Substance Abuse) Originally Published May 18, 2023 “If you ain’t eating right, you ain’t thinking right” It’s October 2003, and I am 14 years old. I’m in the back of the class, flirting with my lifelong crush and new boyfriend. I have had the hots for this…