Bipolar Black Sheep

  • Caffeine is a Drug

    Caffeine is the most widely used drug in the world and, for me, the most addictive substance I have ever consumed. Most of us drink some form of caffeine daily without questioning it. As our world becomes more anxious, I must examine my daily choices and how they affect my mood and well-being. I have…

  • Magical Microdosing

    (Trigger Warning – Psychedelic Use, Please do research and consult with professionals before you experiment with mushrooms/psilocybin. SAFETY FIRST) “One trip can change your whole life” For years, I was terrified of mushrooms. I loved getting fucked up, but the idea of tripping seemed like a nightmare to me. I had heard countless horror stories…

  • The Anxiety Experiment

    (Trigger Warning – Substance Abuse and Suicidal Ideation) “My anxiety has anxiety” Originally Published January 29th 2025  Anxiety has been a significant part of my life since childhood; you could say it’s one of my closest companions. I often find myself trapped in a cycle of worrying and envisioning worst-case scenarios. I can lie in…

  • Fuck! I’m Sober

    (Trigger Warning – Substance Abuse, Depression, and Sexual Fuckery) Originally Published April 5, 2023 “My least favorite place to be is in active addiction” It’s May 2003, and I’m 14 years old. My childhood best friend and I have decided that it’s our turn to get drunk for the very first time. We sneak into…

  • Cumming Out

    (Trigger Warning – Suicide, Sex & Substance Abuse) Originally Published February 22, 2023 “You will never find anything real being fake.” I haven’t had a stable job in years – It’s 2018, and I merely exist to use other people’s shit. I use their houses, their couches, their food, their cars, their clothes, their bathrooms,…

  • Starving Myself

    (Trigger Warning – Disordered Eating, Sexual Content, and Substance Abuse) Originally Published May 18, 2023 “If you ain’t eating right, you ain’t thinking right” It’s October 2003, and I am 14 years old. I’m in the back of the class, flirting with my lifelong crush and new boyfriend. I have had the hots for this…

  • Waking Up

    (Trigger Warning – Mental Chaos, Disordered Eating, and Religious Exploration) Originally Published June 25, 2023 “Question Your Beliefs” It’s January 2015, and I am on a tour across the country to find myself. I’m 25 years old and freshly out of a toxic 3-year relationship. My boyfriend got secretly engaged and I am beyond crushed.…

  • My Dead Dad

    (Trigger Warning – Death, Substance Abuse, and Suicidal Ideation) Originally Published March 22, 2023 “You don’t have a drinking problem unless your glass is empty” – Anthony Peter Kligis Jr (Pete/My Dad) I got that call, The one that no one wants to answer – But I had to. It’s February 2016, and I’m in…