Bipolar Black Sheep

  • My 1st Healthy Relationship

    It’s June 2022, and I am in Portland, Oregon. I just completed a month-long volunteer program on an organic livestock farm and feel sad to leave. Being on the farm was one of the best experiences of my life, and I plan to remain friends with the farmers forever. That said, I have no idea…

  • Living in a Tent

    (Trigger Warning – Disordered Eating and Substance Abuse) “It only takes a couple of minutes to lose everything” It’s September 2014, and I’m living with my wealthy boyfriend. We’ve been caught in a toxic three-year relationship, and things are about to get real. We had been doing long-distance for the past few years; he lived…

  • Fuck! I’m Sober

    (Trigger Warning – Substance Abuse, Depression, and Sexual Fuckery) Originally Published April 5, 2023 “My least favorite place to be is in active addiction” It’s May 2003, and I’m 14 years old. My childhood best friend and I have decided that it’s our turn to get drunk for the very first time. We sneak into…

  • Cumming Out

    (Trigger Warning – Suicide, Sex & Substance Abuse) Originally Published February 22, 2023 “You will never find anything real being fake.” I haven’t had a stable job in years – It’s 2018, and I merely exist to use other people’s shit. I use their houses, their couches, their food, their cars, their clothes, their bathrooms,…

  • Bipolar Sugar Baby

    (Trigger Warning – Prostitution, Substance Abuse, and Raunchy Sex) Originally Published April 19, 2023 “To have true power over your life, you need your own money” It’s August 2011 and I’m out for my 22nd birthday bash. Per usual I am drinking a ton and having a lot of fun. I am with my college…

  • Waking Up

    (Trigger Warning – Mental Chaos, Disordered Eating, and Religious Exploration) Originally Published June 25, 2023 “Question Your Beliefs” It’s January 2015, and I am on a tour across the country to find myself. I’m 25 years old and freshly out of a toxic 3-year relationship. My boyfriend got secretly engaged and I am beyond crushed.…