Bipolar Black Sheep

  • My 1st Healthy Relationship

    It’s June 2022, and I am in Portland, Oregon. I just completed a month-long volunteer program on an organic livestock farm and feel sad to leave. Being on the farm was one of the best experiences of my life, and I plan to remain friends with the farmers forever. That said, I have no idea…

  • Caffeine is a Drug

    Caffeine is the most widely used drug in the world and, for me, the most addictive substance I have ever consumed. Most of us drink some form of caffeine daily without questioning it. As our world becomes more anxious, I must examine my daily choices and how they affect my mood and well-being. I have…

  • Magical Microdosing

    (Trigger Warning – Psychedelic Use, Please do research and consult with professionals before you experiment with mushrooms/psilocybin. SAFETY FIRST) “One trip can change your whole life” For years, I was terrified of mushrooms. I loved getting fucked up, but the idea of tripping seemed like a nightmare to me. I had heard countless horror stories…

  • The Anxiety Experiment

    (Trigger Warning – Substance Abuse and Suicidal Ideation) “My anxiety has anxiety” Originally Published January 29th 2025  Anxiety has been a significant part of my life since childhood; you could say it’s one of my closest companions. I often find myself trapped in a cycle of worrying and envisioning worst-case scenarios. I can lie in…

  • Retired Party Girl

    (Trigger Warning – Substance Abuse and Chaos) “It is easier to stay sober than to get sober” Originally Published January 8th 2025 I feel the chilly breeze tickling my warm skin as tiny raindrops fall on my head while I walk up a steep hill. Tears stream down my face as I kick acorns and…

  • Amphetamine Psychosis

    (Trigger Warning – Sexual Abuse, Traumatic Events, Self Harm, Substance Abuse, Rape) Originally Published March 9, 2023 “The hardest part of writing it, is reliving it.” I am losing my mind, but I like it. It’s August 2022; I just turned 33 and have never been this creative. I can barely sleep at night because…

  • My Dead Dad

    (Trigger Warning – Death, Substance Abuse, and Suicidal Ideation) Originally Published March 22, 2023 “You don’t have a drinking problem unless your glass is empty” – Anthony Peter Kligis Jr (Pete/My Dad) I got that call, The one that no one wants to answer – But I had to. It’s February 2016, and I’m in…