• The Anxiety Experiment

    (Trigger Warning – Substance Abuse and Suicidal Ideation) “My anxiety has anxiety” Originally Published January 29th 2025  Anxiety has been a significant part of my life since childhood; you could say it’s one of my closest companions. I often find myself trapped in a cycle of worrying and envisioning worst-case scenarios. I can lie in…

  • Bipolar Sugar Baby

    (Trigger Warning – Prostitution, Substance Abuse, and Raunchy Sex) Originally Published April 19, 2023 “To have true power over your life, you need your own money” It’s August 2011 and I’m out for my 22nd birthday bash. Per usual I am drinking a ton and having a lot of fun. I am with my college…

  • Old Suicide Notes

    (Trigger Warning – Suicide, Self Harm, and Suicidal Ideation) Originally Published June 6, 2023 “Honest Conversations Save Lives” It’s August 2021, and I’m staying with my close friend in Seattle, Washington, for a week. It’s supposed to be a fun birthday trip for me, but quite the opposite is true. While she is at work,…

  • My Dead Dad

    (Trigger Warning – Death, Substance Abuse, and Suicidal Ideation) Originally Published March 22, 2023 “You don’t have a drinking problem unless your glass is empty” – Anthony Peter Kligis Jr (Pete/My Dad) I got that call, The one that no one wants to answer – But I had to. It’s February 2016, and I’m in…