Bipolar Black Sheep

  • Keep Going! You Matter <3

    May is Mental Health Awareness Month and WE ARE IN A CRISIS. Suicide is the leading cause of death for individuals under 30, and it is the top cause of death for men under 50. People are literally dying because they feel hopeless and alone. This breaks my heart and makes me cry. If you…

  • Caffeine is a Drug

    Caffeine is the most widely used drug in the world and, for me, the most addictive substance I have ever consumed. Most of us drink some form of caffeine daily without questioning it. As our world becomes more anxious, I must examine my daily choices and how they affect my mood and well-being. I have…

  • Magical Microdosing

    (Trigger Warning – Psychedelic Use, Please do research and consult with professionals before you experiment with mushrooms/psilocybin. SAFETY FIRST) “One trip can change your whole life” For years, I was terrified of mushrooms. I loved getting fucked up, but the idea of tripping seemed like a nightmare to me. I had heard countless horror stories…

  • The Anxiety Experiment

    (Trigger Warning – Substance Abuse and Suicidal Ideation) “My anxiety has anxiety” Originally Published January 29th 2025  Anxiety has been a significant part of my life since childhood; you could say it’s one of my closest companions. I often find myself trapped in a cycle of worrying and envisioning worst-case scenarios. I can lie in…

  • Retired Party Girl

    (Trigger Warning – Substance Abuse and Chaos) “It is easier to stay sober than to get sober” Originally Published January 8th 2025 I feel the chilly breeze tickling my warm skin as tiny raindrops fall on my head while I walk up a steep hill. Tears stream down my face as I kick acorns and…

  • Amphetamine Psychosis

    (Trigger Warning – Sexual Abuse, Traumatic Events, Self Harm, Substance Abuse, Rape) Originally Published March 9, 2023 “The hardest part of writing it, is reliving it.” I am losing my mind, but I like it. It’s August 2022; I just turned 33 and have never been this creative. I can barely sleep at night because…

  • Fuck! I’m Sober

    (Trigger Warning – Substance Abuse, Depression, and Sexual Fuckery) Originally Published April 5, 2023 “My least favorite place to be is in active addiction” It’s May 2003, and I’m 14 years old. My childhood best friend and I have decided that it’s our turn to get drunk for the very first time. We sneak into…

  • Old Suicide Notes

    (Trigger Warning – Suicide, Self Harm, and Suicidal Ideation) Originally Published June 6, 2023 “Honest Conversations Save Lives” It’s August 2021, and I’m staying with my close friend in Seattle, Washington, for a week. It’s supposed to be a fun birthday trip for me, but quite the opposite is true. While she is at work,…