Bipolar Black Sheep

  • How 2 Become a Runner

    (Trigger Warning – Disordered Eating and Pooping in Public) As a child, I dreaded running. Each year, I could barely finish the mile in gym class. Even though I played three team sports—volleyball, basketball, and soccer—I only ran when necessary. However, at 20, when my mental health spiraled for the first time and I began…

  • Magical Microdosing

    (Trigger Warning – Psychedelic Use, Please do research and consult with professionals before you experiment with mushrooms/psilocybin. SAFETY FIRST) “One trip can change your whole life” For years, I was terrified of mushrooms. I loved getting fucked up, but the idea of tripping seemed like a nightmare to me. I had heard countless horror stories…

  • Fat to Fit

    (Trigger Warning – Disordered Eating) “It’s a lifestyle, not a diet” I have struggled with my weight and body issues my whole life. I was the queen of disordered eating, yo-yo dieting, and body dysmorphia. Around the age of 13, I developed my first eating disorder. I was skinny but always felt very fat. I…

  • The Anxiety Experiment

    (Trigger Warning – Substance Abuse and Suicidal Ideation) “My anxiety has anxiety” Originally Published January 29th 2025  Anxiety has been a significant part of my life since childhood; you could say it’s one of my closest companions. I often find myself trapped in a cycle of worrying and envisioning worst-case scenarios. I can lie in…

  • Retired Party Girl

    (Trigger Warning – Substance Abuse and Chaos) “It is easier to stay sober than to get sober” Originally Published January 8th 2025 I feel the chilly breeze tickling my warm skin as tiny raindrops fall on my head while I walk up a steep hill. Tears stream down my face as I kick acorns and…

  • Starving Myself

    (Trigger Warning – Disordered Eating, Sexual Content, and Substance Abuse) Originally Published May 18, 2023 “If you ain’t eating right, you ain’t thinking right” It’s October 2003, and I am 14 years old. I’m in the back of the class, flirting with my lifelong crush and new boyfriend. I have had the hots for this…